I once had an experience where I as a light had become part of the entire light and consciousness and at that time was able to see out from his eyes and at that point all time was happening at the same time. no fear, no mystery, no darkness. Just the glow of love and the light of all knowledge.
It’s always been my  inner belief that God originally separated himself from himself in order to be able to see, self validate and to confirm himself ? And we as beings simply the many separated parts of him all possessing a common thread which sews together the tapestry of this universe? I’ve always felt this and that I was a part of God.
My question to you is are you and I of the same mind with what I just said?

I am not able to meditate or even still my mind for a moment. The incessant chatter of the mind goes on continuously without any specific subjects and I feel tired of myself. My mind does not know how to relax. I have tried various methods, even hypnotherapy. Though I must say that after the hypnotherapy course I felt good for some time and was able to focus better on things. I keep trying to search for something (I don’t know what so I can’t give it a name, happiness, peace, security, God??). But seem to fail. I’ve tried practicing Buddhism, follow different faiths and I am still where I was… nowhere.

I am sure my question also sounds confused. Do you really think the PSM would help?

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How do you know if you are experiencing a higher state of consciousness or you have a mental illness such as Bipolar 2?  I have had what I thought were higher states of consciousness such as feeling the presence of God but now that I have been diagnosed with a mental illness (Bipolar II) I do not know what to believe, what is real and what is not.

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Higher states of consciousness are generally understood in the Eastern wisdom traditions to be a permanent state of self-realization that actualizes one’s potentiality, creativity, intelligence and compassion. It is not a temporary glimpse or episode of insight, ecstasy or inspiration.

I am having angry feelings now during the holidays because I am not able to be with my husband because he works in Nigeria - he just left yesterday for a month (he works rotational a month and returns for 3 weeks). I am having trouble getting motivated to buy gifts, send cards or plan any holiday meal. We have never missed a Christmas and I feel deprived about this, and I know others are probably having more difficult things to worry about but I cannot help it.  I am not accepting his work very well and this is just another example of my rejecting the work overseas, which I cannot change.  What should I do to feel grateful and not angry when I see everyone going to parties and dinners and shopping and enjoying the holidays together, which is what I really like about the season?

I have some confusion about the concept of journaling. I know that it is meant to be helpful and healing, but doesn’t it also cause us to focus on (in my case) negative thoughts and feelings that which we are writing about? And focussing on those things can cause them to become exactly what you fear? I would love to hear your opinion on this.

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Journaling can be a helpful process for those who need to gain perspective and some distance on their inner feelings and conditioning. When you write out your thoughts and emotions, you make them explicit and objectify them in a way that is not always easy to do when these thoughts are embedded in the background of the flow of your everyday life.

Once you achieve the top level of human potential what do you with it? and what is the point of getting there? I am awake, I live in the present moment and can easily realize when I slip out of the present calling myself back into being. I just keep on living this way I guess being and doing?

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Actualizing your potential is being your true self, and that takes care of the doing automatically. The other thing to bear in mind here is that being awake and in the present moment is not the pinnacle of human potential. It is an important milestone in the unfoldment of higher states of consciousness for sure, but in many ways it is really only the beginning of the fun part of the journey.